he smiled; I died.

well, after I was made disappointed of JUMP's performance days ago, I should admit that seeing the whole Hey! Say! JUMP's First Photobook by my own eyes made it worth anything to become a JUMP fangirl again.

I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW THAT I'M READY FOR THE DOOMSDAY.


okay, so yesterday me, ace, ge and pat really DID fulfill our promise see the photobook together by our own eyes. we've waited for like months; trying to not be tempted by those scans and translations on LJ; and especially for ace who had received the photobook right on the releasing day. I love you ace, thank you for waiting for us :)


it began with me and ge's suprise birthday present for ace. she had no idea about that, just as I guess. I think she liked the sticker anyway, so I'm happy for her :) we tried to wait for mon after that, but because ge needed to go back at 4 pm and mon didn't come, we decided to open the photobook without her.


TA-DAAAAA~

I'm so proud to have this, no lie. most of the contents are paparazzi photos but still, there are some pics that made me (+ge) scream like crazy. my favorite picture of all is:


I almost died for this one. keito smiled; I died. look, I mean,... the smile. the shimmering face. the muscles. he was anything but imperfect. everything about him made me happy-scream and my soul was taken to heaven. keito IS improving--he becomes more expressive, more brave, more handsome LOL, and I absolutely love the hair. yeah, that's my future husband. isn't he perfect? damn.


I love Hey! Say! JUMP today. I love them 9 months ago. I love them yesterday. I'll love them tomorrow. and I'll still love them as the time goes by. I'll be more than happy to spend my lifetime loving them. these 9 months were the best times in my life. but the truth is I kinda miss the old JUMP. JUMP is changing for sure. you could easily tell that Yuto is changing--he becomes more mature, and (sorry) not as attractive. I really, really miss the old Yuto and I'll give whatever it takes to change him back to the old, cute, innocent-looked Yuto. I miss Okajima. it's not like I hate Keito being bestfriends with Daiki but this heart truly believes that Keito belongs to Yuto. needless to say I also miss the old Chii who used to have this weird but cute bangs and he's bouncing anywhere like a cute little rabbit. I also miss the old Ryuu--growing taller for like 13 cm sure changed him a lot. and on the top of all I kinda miss the old, timid, shy little Keito. I'm happy to have him becoming more expressive, but with their changes, I don't see JUMP as I used to. do you know how it feels to have your idols suddenly become some different people?? you used to know them and liked them so much, and now they changed, and though you still love 'em, but a part of your heart still miss their old side? it's like watching your daughter growing and suddenly she changes into someone you don't get at all.


so the point is becoming JUMP fan isn't eassssy at all. but I'm still supporting them no matter what--I can't live without them. though becoming their fan brings me happy and sad times, I can't imagine my life without them.


I love you JUMP. forever and always.