formspring.me

be a little nosy please! LOL http://formspring.me/valya

rankers?

oh hell-o. however I'm online now, typing and writing on this blog, whilst nothing has been finished yet! geez. I can't help, writing is my life. anyway, I just take this and the result was amazing! JUMP fans, check it out. mine looks like this:

Rank	Hey! Say! JUMP Ranking Favorite (Top) to Least Favorite (Bottom)

and it's very true O_o

hiatus

hey again people :) it's been centuries since my last post, but please understand since my life is as boring as watching snails racing; on the other hand, today is far more exciting than my last couple of days, so here I am, updating my blog, not knowing what to do, but knowing what to write :)

today was.. uhmm.. fantastic :) I had so much fun swimming with mon, pat, ace, and ge. and because had to pick up pat, I came early to her house and it's the first time I've ever been to hers ^^; next, we went to mon's apartment in Sudirman Park. what should I say.. the most exciting part was looking at ge's LG lollipop :( it's like the most perfect handphone I've ever seen--it's clamshell (ha!), cute with colors, slim, contains many features, great at cameras, and of course.. very japan-ish :) oh, and one more factor that we the poor people shouldn't forget: it's not really expensive. yeaaay! pray so that I could get one for my birthday owkaaaay :D

the swimming part was so.. silly as usual. when I, ace, pat, mon and ge meet, I think it's our time being silly :S mon didn't swim and I don't have to tell you why, right? she's in charge of the photos taking and as it's always been, most pictures are about me being bullied :(((

Jesus Christ =.=

and when we realized it's already 12 pm and we had no more time to watch Dear John :( so what did we do? to the kinokuniya as usual. ace brought a magazine that's.. flailable. LOL. met tata and her other friends, which were going there for Oliv's birthday. today was really really nice. I enjoyed it so much.

on the other hand, I think today is my last day touching this computer :( yes, I will be heading the try-outs and it's the same as committing suicide if I keep on playing and never tried to study. poor me. poor ninth graders. I know it sucks, but I have to go through this anyway, so whatever.

thank God there's some good news--Hey! Say! JUMP's 5th single, which I thought would suck even more than any previous singles, are actually a good selling which topped the Oricon CHart at #1 in just one day. no, seriously. it was released two days ago, and with 72,849 pre-orders plus 53,841 selling on the first day and another 25,721 copies sold on the second day, so far it has been sold for about 152,411 copies all over the world ♥what do I say? about a hundred thousand more copies and it reaches Platinum. but this is far more successful, way more incredible than what I could ever expect. and if you count the first two numbers, you would find that the pre-orders together with the first day selling made a total of 126,690 copies sold.. on the first day. in the recording industry, it already qualifies for the Gold certification. but then again I'm not too shocked because even though it seems great, these kind of things are just normal for Johnny's Entertainment's artists--now I think I know why it's been called one of the greatest agency in Japan :( compare it with KAT-TUN, whose pre-order of their single "Love Yourself" reached the number 157,788, which means it even reaches the Gold qualification even before it's being released.

my defense: Hey! Say! JUMP are juniors and KAT-TUN are seniors.

well, although the PV making was incredibly boring (I HAVE WAITED FOR IT IN EXCITEMENT AND IT COMES OUT AS BORING AS HELL, SO I'M STILL REALLY MAD AS COW TO JOHNNY GRANDPA!) and the cover of the single is just too. anything but extraordinary T.T, the song "Kagayaki Days" which was sung by 7 is thankfully very cute... it's like the type of song JUMP used to sing, the song kinda reminds me of "Too Shy" and "School Kakumei". it's great in any meaning, because I'm getting sick already of songs like "Romeo&Juliet".

well, I guess that's the only good news for today :) so.. I'll announce my hiatus here? okay, I'll be on hiatus till... uhm... let's say until everything's finished. God, even I don't know how long would that take.

bye people, support JUMP always!

Passage of the Day

Jeremiah 29:11

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

now now, I am never be able to complain--and I won't anyways. hold this passage in your heart. and don't be a fool. try to understand it. as for me, I'm like, "so what if I can't marry Okamoto Keito. so what if I'm not a genius who can be on the top everytime. so what if the guy I like isn't single anymore. His plans are always beautiful for me--I'm just too blind to see it."

...and another one;

Romans 8:32

³²He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?

our God is an awesome God. He knows the best for me. on the other hand, He has his own reasons for not giving me. and I'm trying to change from someone who's too stupid to understand and has always been complaining. He's always been so understanding to me. As a good child, I'm in the process of trying to understand him back :) however much I know my own limit, though.

arashick!

Many years since we met, it seems like that was by chance. When we realize, it's already 10 years.

Ballons that fly to the sky.

The slender/small 5 of us ride on the swaying boat

"Let's just keep laughing..." "This place is surely where dreams come true..."

Now we keep in our hearts, those days when we persuaded ourselves that.

There were also days we only always felt rush, uneasiness, and resent

But it's because you were there for us, because your smiles were warm

We were able to come up to here. Beside each other, holding hands

Even with the times we spent together... we're still kind of shy even now

The wind we gathered all over ourselves, even the saddness that we couldn't support,

We were able to smile because you were there.

The lack of harmony from our innocent instrument playing, came to see different worlds.

By the time we noticed, that had become us.

We seriously cry, seriously laugh,

seriously worry, seriously live

We're proud of where we are now

There's only words of love

that can come from us

Put [these feelings] into this song and look forward again

with these big piled amount of love

If there are no short cuts for every step, go on the path you believe in because that's the only path

If you cry, let's meet again.

These unchanging guys will send just send you their love. Wishing for a future together for you

We will go over, fly over the mountain ahead

Coloring it with our colors yeah

I wonder if you are looking at the sky that I looked at alone?

Then, I will just sing toward the sky...with all my strength.

If our conversations don't disappear, I will promise you this love for 100 years ahead.

So that smiles blossoms.

It's always always in my heart. so I want to try and convey them.

Thank you "Even from now on, Thank you"

We are standing here. Able to shine, because you are here

The five of us are here, we'll always be here

If we change everything up until now into strength, wrap it with unchanging love,

Eternity, look, eternity

was born only for you and I.

La la la la・・・

Love, Love for you



-translation from Arashi's song, "5x10" (read: Five by Ten)



what can I say? I'm so much in love with Arashi now. this song is currently my favorite, and I don't see any reason why don't you make it yours. definitely one of the best Japanese pop songs I've ever listened to.

"overwhelming"

not gonna stop

uploading photos :)



theory one: nakayama yuma is NOT cute. because if he is, he should have fitted girl looks, even if we only change the hair. just like yama and keito did (in a verrrry well way) but..



when I changed

this
into

thisdo you find that cute? I don't. *or maybe it's just me who can't manipulate it very well. yaha*



on the other hand...



my sister had done such a great job.

congratulations, okamoto keito, you are officially a QT and as for my sister, no wonder you got accepted in the graphic design department :S

next page, please

hey all. so, on this weekend things went.. pretty well, I guess. the 50th wedding anniversary went great, except for the fact that without my knowledge my mom had secretly invited her friends, accompanied with their sons/daughters which are also my friends, that successfully made me embarrassed like to the level 100 out of 10. blah, don't remind me of this again :(

the good thing is, yep, it did go well. congratulations and celebrations to my dear Popo Sin Fan and Kungkung Eka. love you guys forever and always, and thank you for being such a great grandparents all this time. you rock, guys.

as usual, family gathering means narcissism time :D ow yeah. but somehow I'm too lazy to upload the photos here, so just in case you guys are curious about the photos we've taken, just click down there:

we love ourselves for all the damn sake.


on the other hand, does anybody remember what date today is? oh, that's right. the thirty-third of january. so... I guess tomorrow is already february then? YEAAAAY. I've been waiting for this since new year. maybe february would be like the most important month of the year. because in february:

1. on the 24h (based on Kamichan's predictions), Hey! Say! JUMP is going to release a new single. (fffffffffiiiiiinnnnnnaaaaaaaaallllllyyyyy!!!!)

2. new single = new PV. enough said. this is exactly what I've been waiting for~ <3

3. the goodie bags that I ordered from Japan will(hopefully) arrive this month! amen, amen. I really can't wait.

4. and hopefully the calenders will arrive as well.


so next month will be all about JUMP, heh? :S but no, not really. there's just some things in february that I'm waiting for, but I really can't write it here.


on the other hand.. (again) last night's party was AWESOME because my stylist CUT my EYEBROWS and I can't help but feeling ITCHY right now (anybody notice some sarcastic tones?) dear mr. stylist, next time you wanna shape my eyebrows, please just use some brow pencils and don't cut them. please. because if they grow back and become thicker or my eyebrows start looking like gorilla's, I'm gonna chase you to hell T.T


by the way, dea's profile picture on facebook is totally awesome. check it out. I'm so proud to have her as my cousin, you know ♥


and lastly...


this picture just made my day. who can resist a creature that beautiful? Gosh. I really wish he's mine >.< and congratulations to myself because the last time I checked, I had collected more than 3000 pictures of Keito, and that makes me proud :) howyeaa.


nah, hibernasi dulu ah. TTYL people.

frame of the family.

saya bosaaaaaaan :(
terus tiba tiba teringat sama foto foto ini.
jadi ya sudah, saya post saja.


FOTO KELUARGA. KOTA TU TOEA


[click on the picture to ENLARGE]

kata mami-papi-cici-sepupu, rambut saya kea orang korea. masa? ga juga. yang jelas, nyatoknya butuh pengorbanan besar.




perusakan sarana dan prasarana umum dengan menduduki meriam yang (seharusnya) merupakan bukti sejarah dan perlawanan bangsa terhadap penjajah. yihaa pantesan bryan cemberut.



bangga banget bisa foto di samping sepeda ontel, padahal tau cara ngegoesnya aja kaga.




yiha nadila cantik banget disini. berlawanan sama cici sepupunya yang kedua. jangan tanya siapa.




beuh, emangnya enak foto terus? kaki pegeeeeeeeel :(


oh, dan satu lagi:



buset kita sok berasa model banget! senyumnya itu loh, hahaha. sok sadar kamera banget! apalagi saya. hadooh. :(

ga keluarga papi ga keluarga mami semuanya hobi bernarsis ria :( bagaimana nasib masa depan kitaaaaa? aw pasti gen narsisnya menurun. gawat.


harap-harap cemas, semoga keito/morimoto ga senarsis saya. you know.. memperbaiki keturunan.


yiha let's blame our mami-papi. kalo mereka ga narsis kan ga mungkin nurun ke kita :)

hoy, lengser

akhirnya! lengser juga.


reaksi pertama: tubuh serasa polos karena kehilangan 2 hiasan sekaligus (baca: medali OSIS dan selendang OSIS) yihaa. terus kita peluk pelukan gitu deh. sok perpisahan banget ya? hahaha.
bahagia juga ngeliat pengurus pengurus baru. mereka terlihat bersemangat. ada yang tegang, keliatan banget. tapi ada juga yang keliatannya udah pasrah. mungkin karena sebagian dari mereka udah tau, kan kemaren bocor :S


sekarang saya hanya murid biasa. jalan tanpa beban di pundak. yah, udah gak bisa bolos kelas lagi dengan alasan sosialisasi :,( (huoo, bejat alert!)
bagi yang lain mungkin beban mereka sudah terangkat semuanya. bagi saya, belum.
saya memang sudah tidak lagi jadi ketua redaksi. tapi STORM belum terbit :) dan saya akan jadi generasi OSIS gagal apabila saya tidak mampu menerbitkannya. saya sudah cukup gagal karena saya telat menerbitkannya, padahal sudah beda generasi. tapi tetap harus terbit.

biarlah sebutan pemred tinggal sebutan. biarlah semua itu tersurat meski tidak tersirat. saya hanya butuh bukti nyata :) dan aneh sekali saya malah bersemangat mengurusi semuanya justru setelah saya lengser. ini namanya penyesalan yang terlambat. tapi saya memang masih belajar. padahal dulu saya melarikan diri.

oh iya, map OSIS tinggal kenangan. map jingga yang dulu dikhususkan bagi berkas-berkas publikasi. map yang seiring berjalannya waktu mulai terlupakan keberadaannya dan tidak pernah dipakai lagi. map yang baru saya temukan tadi. map itu hampir kosong, tapi penuh dengan memori. oh Tuhan, masih bolehkah kugenggam sisa kenangan ini, dan tak pernah kulepaskan? karena kenangan itu sudah menjadi bagian dari diriku bagaimanapun juga.

semoga semuanya ini menajdi pelajaran berharga bagi saya, amin.

facebook heboh. pada selamatan :) tidak heran. reaksi umum. dulu ketika diterima saya juga serasa jadi makhluk paling berbahagia di dunia. itulah keajaibannya :D wahai para OSIS baru, setahun lagi kalian mungkin akan mengalami kesedihan dan arsa rindu seperti yang saya alami sekarang. tapi, mungkin juga tidak. oleh karena itu, nikmatilah setahun kalian yang berharga. selamat berjuang!


another color has been painted on another page of my life. here I begin the new journey.

sincerely, mantan OSIS Sie Publikasi yang TELAH lengser dengan suksesnya,
valya :)

tomorrow I'll paint a whole new different color.

tidak terasa...
sudah 352 hari saya menjabat menjadi OSIS Sie Publikasi SMP Santa Ursula.
352 hari = 8.448 jam
8.448 jam = 506.880 menit
506.880 menit = 30.412.800 detik
(sebaiknya saya stop mengconvert angka-angka ini sekarang, sebelum kalkulator saya meledak karena angkanya terlalu banyak)
betapa fantastis angka itu. tiga puluh juta empat ratus dua belas ribu delapan ratus detik.
kalau dijadikan Rupiah, saya kaya.
tapi masalahnya ini adalah waktu.
tiga puluh juta empat ratus dua belas ribu delapan ratus detik yang berharga.
and I'm enjoying every second of it.


~~~


hampir setahun yang lalu, saya sedang berdiri di depan aula SMP dengan hati berteriak-teriak gembira karena diterima OSIS.
kemudian saya mulai menuliskan sukacita saya di blog.
menulis note ucapan terimakasih dan mengetag anggota OSIS yang saya kenal.
karena hati saya sangat gembira dan penuh rasa terimakasih.


tapi besok akan ada pergantian generasi.
mungkin akan ada jeritan tangis dan tawa membahana di aula.
yang tidak diterima menitikkan air mata.
yang diterima saling berpelukan gembira.
dan kita, para OSIS lama, akan memperhatikan reaksi mereka dengan penuh haru biru.
pasti serasa nostalgia :) karena kita pernah bereaksi seperti itu.
tapi, memang sudah waktunya.


dari pihak yang menerima medali OSIS sampai menjadi pihak yang mewariskan.
meski hanya berganti predikat, namun perjalanan yang ditempuh tidaklah singkat.
dari pihak yang memulai hingga menjadi pihak yang mengakhiri.
sebuah perjalanan sebetulnya tak akan terhenti sampai di sini.
sesungguhnya aku memulai perjalanan tanpa bekal sama sekali.
aku hanya bermodalkan anugerah berupa kesempatan untuk mengembangkan diri.
seiring langkahku mulai menapak,
aku justru mendapat ilmu
aku justru dihibahi berkarung-karung pengalaman
aku disirami berember-ember kesedihan
aku diliputi berlapis-lapis kekecewaan
aku diberkahi berton-ton kegembiraan
aku juga menemukan banyak hal baru.


setahun itu singkat, meski kalau diubah menjadi satuan detik angkanya memang bombastis.
mulai besok, aku akan menajdi murid biasa.
semua usaha kami tinggal lah kenangan.
pasti akan tiba saatnya kami mengenang masa-masa itu :)
aku akan mulai mengenang LDK kami, yang pertama dan terakhir.
rapat pertama kami di sekolah, semuanya berjalan lancar.
rapat kedua, ribut dan banyak cekcok.
rapat-rapat selanjutnya diliputi atmosfer kecewa karena program kami ditolak suster.
lalu tiba saatnya dekor pertama kami. semua semangat ketika itu.
rasa antusias yang selalu meliputi kami ketika membicarakan Sanur Day.
samar-samar tercium aroma pesimistis seiring berjalannya waktu.
namun akhirnya usaha kami berbuah. Sanur Day sukses.
sempat juga dimarahin Gitta karena sibuk nonton video HSJ sama Mon :P
lama-lama kita juga malas dekor.
kami sempat berjalan sendiri-sendiri.
kami lupa ada tali yang mengikat kami.
tapi mungkin besok semuanya akan menyadari, betapa masih kencangnya ikatan tali itu.
tali yang mungkin tak pernah lepas meski jabatan kami sudah diwariskan.
yang pertama dan terakhir, selalu paling berkesan :)


terimakasih atas semuanya, meski aku tidak tahu harus berterimakasih kepada siapa.
besok, aku akan kehilangan sesuatu yang telah selalu menyertaiku selama satu tahun.
tapi toh meski sesuatu itu akan hilang, aku akan baik-baik saja.
karena seperti kata orang, every ending is just another beginning.



Selamat untuk pengurus OSIS tahun 2010 yang terpilih, yang akan diketahui daftar lengkapnya besok :D
Good Luck & Never Give Up

sincerely, OSIS Sie Publikasi yang sebentar lagi akan lengser dengan suksesnya,
valya :)

counsinhood of the mirror addicts

we love mirror! all kind of mirrors. but especially the huge ones that are able to use as a media of narcissism. oh, anyway, by 'we' I mean me, my sister, my cousin diandra and diandra's cousin chacha. everytime we go on a holiday together, we'll never miss striking poses in front of mirrors. wherever there's a mirror, there we are. we'll never even miss spotting a single mirror. we love taking pictures of ourselves. we're young narcissists. and that's why I call ourselves the mirror addicts.


thanks to the biggest ever bathroom mirror I've ever seen in Hilton Bandung Hotel and also to the amazing lighting, we've got some(well, a bunch actually) gossip-girl-like pictures. here we go:























the story:
me: "I'll try this new color. maybe it'll work for my lips."
vannya: "..." (I have no idea what she's doing back there. late for the pose?)
cha: "this is why I need mascara!"
diandra: "a thin wipe of this eyeliner sure will make my eyes look even more amazing."

the story:
me: *smooch*
vannya: "now I know what I needed. hairspray!"
cha: "*ugh*... I never know using mascara is this hard. but I'll keep on smiling!"
diandra: "are thin wipes enough? I think I need thick ones."

and finally...



the story:
me: "pucker up. this is a perfect touch."
vannya: "hey, I want to try holding the phone too!"
cha: "finally! I'm done!"
diandra: "I thought so. thick wipes are better than thin ones. great job."

and...

ups, I almost forgot.
credits to: my mom's make-up which are borrowed without her her permission. yep, she had no idea at all even until now that her make up had been used as equipments to accomplish our mission.

on the other side, there's always somebody (or more than that) who wanted to get picture of themselves without tolerating whether the others want to join or not! so this is what we got on my camera:

the story:
me: "hey, do not take pictures alone! it's my camera, you know~"


so that's it. sadly, the phone camera showed no mercy. I know we got a huge mirror and a great lighting, but to be honest the camera made the quality bad :( well, I guess 3.2 MP aren't just enough to fulfill our passion or narcissism. next time we'll try using SLR. may-be.

the good thing is, by using a phone camera, we can use the self-timer application, which, I should admit, is really useful for self-lover people like us. we got these amazing photos back then:


I love this one more than anything. great job huh?




this one was taken when the phone almost fell of (since we put it on the table vertically, without any guards!) so I tried to catch it and that's when the self-timer worked and captured the rest three persons. needless to say they're not ready :P but what to say, all of them still looked good. cha had this most natural smile ever and diandra's expression is just.. priceless.




next. based on the previous lesson about 'not putting the phone vertically without any guards', not we put it on the table and let it lean on the wall at the same time so it won't fell. thanks again to the self-timer function.

















and I simply love cha's earrings. they hung on her ears like that and they automatically elongated cha's face, and I love the combination of the long shape with the plaid purple shirt that cha wore at the moment :) one word: classy. spell it.


















I did a funny face in this one. a shocked expression that every narcissist, I'm sure, had tried to make at least once.


pure narcissist always loves this 'surprised/shocked expression' :P it's standard, don't you think? but what I like from this photo is the look of my yellow nail polish that's stricken by the light and it made the color totally amazing, like some kind of gold-ish or something like that. and I still adore cha's earrings. love, love, love this.

...[by the way, this is the last photo that we took in the bathroom. and if you're curious about the things that's captured because they're on the table, let me tell you that they are:
(from your left to your right)
our bathing-kit case, my hairband, a complimentary card from the hotel, my mom/dad/sister's toothbrush, and my sister's brackets box]

speaking about mirrors, Hilton Bandung sure has great and unique mirrors. me and my sister took these photo down there just because we fell in love with the eccentric shape of the mirror:

here, you can see the original shape of the mirror on the reflection: because there were like four of them at that place.

I immediately said to my sister, "I'll ask mom to search for this kind of mirror!" But I haven't yet, anyway, because I know even though she finds it, she won't buy it for me.

this is what our conversations will exactly be like:

me: "mom, I want to have the mirror like the ones at the hotel, if you know what I mean."
mom: "yeah, I know. but no, no way you're gonna have it."
me: "why not?" (I actually know why, Mom)
mom: "because you already have two mirrors in your room! isn't it more than enough?"
me: "no, it's enough." (...I knew it)

but you see here, for a mirror addict like me, two mirrors aren't enough, because a uniquely shaped mirror is just irresistible for me. well, I'm trying to forget that mirror now.. >.<


...oh well...


that's all about the story of the mirror and me. pretty unimportant, right? however, that's who I am. I wish you had enjoyed your time reading this post. as for me, I quite enjoyed writing this post.


talk to your later :) au revoir!

simple shoutout.

do you know that random feelings that come to you and make you feel like writing something on your blog, but the truth is your life story isn't currently interesting enough to be posted on any kind of media, so all you do is sitting in front of your laptop without knowing what to write and ended up saying about all this mess?


let's just get this done. i want to write something--anything--on this space, but I don't know what to write.


so let's just do a simple shoutout about what I'm feeling right now.

what happened today...


ichi. got the tickets for the CC pensi! (yeay? yeay.)

ni. gajadi ngeprint kartul yes gue sebetulnya sih males

san. maen game bego di EF. sampe akhir game gue berhasil dipaksa "sing 2 lines from your favorite pop song" (what? bouken rider? geez, michael you won't even understand. so I sang 'You Belong With Me', thx stella for your idea :] untung gajadi direkam sama andri haha), "stay stand up until your next turn" (gue sial mulu), dan.. oke ga ada dan. emang cuma itu doang :S

yon. tweeting twitting. GUE NGETWEET DEE DAN DIBALES SAMA DIA WOOHOO. ah asik! masih kaga percaya gue tweet-an sama peulis yang paling gue admire :)

[just a recap]
valyaandyani: @deelestari kenalin, saya fans! :D fans yang nangis pas baca rico de corro hahaha. four thumbs up! keep up the good work yaaa :)
deelestari: @valyaandyani Sekali2nya kali ya nangis gara2 kecoak, hehe. Tq ya! #ricodecoro

uhh bangga bangga xD special thanks to: technology, the inventors of electricity, the founder of twitter, and Filosofi Kopi :)

go. laughing at other people's blog.

roku. pengen cepet cepet februari aww. oh iya dong supaya cepet cepet dapet tas jugaaa. dan single HSJ baru keluar yeehaaw

nana. ganti profpic facebook (ga penting banget)

hachi. decided to just go to sleep than wasting my time thinking about what I should & shouldn't write here. bye bloggers!


.............................zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

let's mourn together

oh God, this is exactly why 2010 sucks. it's only been 3 days but as far as I know, I totally hate these first 72 hours and I have no excitement or intentions to live on the rest 362 days.

okay, so I got a total bad news today. a bad thing happen. a bad thing that I have always been hoping not to happen since half a year ago. a bad thing that I prayed days and nights to stay away from my destiny. a bad thing that's totally bad. a bad thing that will sound silly for you who don't understand.

NYC Boys is officially no longer a temporary group.

farewell, Yama and Chii.

I know, I know. they are still members of JUMP, just like Nishikido Ryo becoming a member of both NEWS and Kanjani at the same time. but you see, honestly, no JUMP fans would ever want this to happen. being in two groups at the same time means busier schedule, more shows, and probably more appearances--at the same time. needless to say I'm sure there will be a time when both JUMP and NYC would have to do some shows at the same time, at different places--Yama and Chii would have to choose on and sacrifice the other then.

sadly, based on what I think and what I see, that old grandpa mr. Johnny will surely pick NYC than JUMP if he has to choose. no doubt. he would rather have "JUMP-performing-with-two-members-missing" than "NYC-performing-with-two-members-missing".

graor, this is the first bad news of year 2010.

look, the fact that Yama and Chii are the two most famous members of JUMP, I can accept that, okay? BUT. I can't accept the fact that they are used to make other group becomes popular. go to hell, mr. Johnny, please. I feel like using all the swear words in every language that human could possibly understand at the moment. I'm mad. I'm sad. I'm more than that. I'm simply disappointed.

ah, but then again, what can I do? I'm just a fan, who lives in Indonesia--a country which Johnny Kitazawa himself probably never heard of, with no idea that bunches of JUMP fans are actually from this shitty country. our words, no matter how hard we try, will never be spoken loud enough for them to listen.

now all I can do is watch. watching my favorite group slowly changing into ten people with no unity at all. I miss the old JUMP for sure. now I can totally blame mr. Johnny if JUMP's existence fades away from my heart. what a way, but I don't want that, thanks.

oh God! I hate Nakuda even more! this is unavoidable :(

my mami dulu pernah bilang sekali: "grup band itu ya val, kalo membersnya banyak-banyak susah, pasti ga bertahan lama. karena susah ngatur orang segitu banyak. apalagi 10 orag val. jangan berharap banyak deh."

thanks mam. now I get what you meant.

by the way, on the bright side it's also official that JUMP is going to release a new single GEEZ! finally! after 365 + 182 days! called "Hitomi no Screen" (I don't understand it but again, whatever). uh-oh, this should worth our(read: JUMP fans) smile right? but then again, what's so exciting if a good news was announced after some bad news! (yepp, I did read kamichan's blog and be inspired by it) at least it means one or more new songs on my JUMP playlist in my iPod.

uh, whatever :(

new year, new hell

sebagai manusia beradab yang mengaku-aku tahu teknologi dan memanfaatkannya seperti bermilyar-milyar umat manusia lainnya, biarlah saya di hari kedua tahun yang baru ini, meski sudah terlambat kurang lebih 40 jam, mengucapkan pada kalian semua:


Happy New Year 2010.

semoga di tahun yang baru ini semuanya dapat menjadi lebih baik bagi kalian semua, amin. dan tentunya bagi saya sendiri juga. ah, tapi saya sudah kehilangan harapan :( awal tahun baru ini sangat... apa ya... ugly? ah, entahlah, yang jelas saya sedang bad mood sekarang, jangan tanya kenapa, dan jelas saya tidak mengharapkan awal tahun baru dalam kondisi seperti ini. belum lagi ditambah dengan kenyataan bahwa UAN dan UAS sudah di depan mata dan saya belum belajar sama sekali! wahai gen pemalas dalam tubuhku, aku benci kamu. kenapa kamu harus mempengaruhiku terus-menerus dan membuatku lebih memilih untuk selonjoran di ranjang daripada membuka buku biologi dan mulai menyicil? dan kenapa kamu harus selalu membuat komputer tampak lebih menarik di mataku daripada setumpuk bahan ulangan yang belum kusentuh sama sekali? dari kacamata manapun, terowongan batin saya me'lihat' awal tahun baru 2010 sebagai permulaan neraka :((

oh, tapi tentunya things can get better--which is exactly what I'm hoping for right now. sekali lagi, amin. dua hari pertama tahun baru saya memang jelek. bukan berarti 363 hari sisanya harus jelek juga kan? nah, saya bertaruh--lebih banyak berharap, sebetulnya--demi kebahagiaan atas sisa 363 hari itu. dan sesuai motto; "new year, new hope"--saya juga punya keinginan dan harapan untuk diwujudkan di tahun ini.

my new year resolution(s):

1. going to Japan and marry my idol setelah dipikir-pikir lagi, belum cukup umur.

2. lulus SMP dengan nilai memuaskan bersama-sama dengan seluruh siswi SMP Santa Ursula kelas 9 [whoever agress please say 'amen']

3. mulai olahraga teratur sebelum sendi saya benar-benar berkarat seperti mekanik yang nggak pernah digerakkan apalagi dikasih pelumas.

4. menjadi anak yang baik dan tahu diri. ini susah :(

5. loving my friends and being loved back. in other words, a happy friendship. indah dan... idealis.

6. mulai berhemat for the sake of my 1st new year resolution, yang setelah dipikir-pikir mau saya jadikan new year resolution bagi tahun 2013 saja setelah saya cukup umur. itupun kalau dunia belum kiamat ya :)

7. oke, ini bukan new year resolution. ini HARAPAN. my wish, my hope. satu-satunya harapan super-idealis-yang-konyol-untuk-dimimpikan-sekalipun-tetapi-dalam-probablity-sekecil-apapun-seharusnya-bisa-tetap-terwujud-karena-as-for-my-God-there-is-nothing-impossible, yaitu:

Hey! Say! JUMP going international.

amin, amin, amin. amin terbesar sepanjang masa.

logika orang bodoh: HSJ going international --> more JUMP, more Keito --> HSJ terkenal di Indonesia --> HSJ konser di Indonesia --> Keito di Jakarta --> valya bertemu langsung dengan prince charming-nya --> kita menikah dan hidup happily ever after di Jepang, dan mudah-mudahan ini semua terjadi sebelum tahun 2014, AMIN.

tapi,

logika orang pintar (dan yang kemungkinan besar terjadi di dunia nyata): HSJ going international --> more JUMP, more Keito --> Keito makin TERKENAL --> Keito makin BANYAK fans --> valya makin banyak saingan --> Keito menikah dengan salah satu fansnya yang secantik puteri yang kecantikannya bagaikan atmosfer dan kapal selam dibanding valya--> valya menjomblo --> valya jadi perawan tua --> valya menghabiskan hari-hari tua sendirian --> valya mengutuki dunia yang tidak adil --> mati tidak bahagia --> rohnya getayangan di dunia.

WOO KOK SEDIH YA. masa depan suram?

penghiburan diri: ah, masih ada morimoto :,-(

kata mami-papi: "masih kecil kok bicara soal nikah."

hehehehe, oke. tapi soal HSJ going international, it's true that I'm hoping for that to happen. may the best happen to Hey! Say! JUMP and my favorite idol ever Okamoto Keito, semoga mereka tetap eksis di dunia hiburan (amin!) dan fansnya semakin banyak (amiiiin!!) dan suatu hari bisa konser di Indonesia (amin! buset, AMIN!) dan jadi terkenal di seluruh dunia (AAAAAMMMMIIIINNNNN). dan semoga ketika hari itu tiba, Keito bisa lebih terkenal dari Robert Cullen ato si Edward Pattinson itu (perhatian: tidak ada kesalahan dalam pengetikan kata-kata), well no offense to the vampire fans.

keep on shining, my Star :)

--> favorite quotes of the day: "I might not be the best fangirl in the world, but I hope to be the hardest at supporting my idol." ~ dikutip dikotak-katik dari quotesnya Ashton Kutcher ha-ha!