let's mourn together

oh God, this is exactly why 2010 sucks. it's only been 3 days but as far as I know, I totally hate these first 72 hours and I have no excitement or intentions to live on the rest 362 days.

okay, so I got a total bad news today. a bad thing happen. a bad thing that I have always been hoping not to happen since half a year ago. a bad thing that I prayed days and nights to stay away from my destiny. a bad thing that's totally bad. a bad thing that will sound silly for you who don't understand.

NYC Boys is officially no longer a temporary group.

farewell, Yama and Chii.

I know, I know. they are still members of JUMP, just like Nishikido Ryo becoming a member of both NEWS and Kanjani at the same time. but you see, honestly, no JUMP fans would ever want this to happen. being in two groups at the same time means busier schedule, more shows, and probably more appearances--at the same time. needless to say I'm sure there will be a time when both JUMP and NYC would have to do some shows at the same time, at different places--Yama and Chii would have to choose on and sacrifice the other then.

sadly, based on what I think and what I see, that old grandpa mr. Johnny will surely pick NYC than JUMP if he has to choose. no doubt. he would rather have "JUMP-performing-with-two-members-missing" than "NYC-performing-with-two-members-missing".

graor, this is the first bad news of year 2010.

look, the fact that Yama and Chii are the two most famous members of JUMP, I can accept that, okay? BUT. I can't accept the fact that they are used to make other group becomes popular. go to hell, mr. Johnny, please. I feel like using all the swear words in every language that human could possibly understand at the moment. I'm mad. I'm sad. I'm more than that. I'm simply disappointed.

ah, but then again, what can I do? I'm just a fan, who lives in Indonesia--a country which Johnny Kitazawa himself probably never heard of, with no idea that bunches of JUMP fans are actually from this shitty country. our words, no matter how hard we try, will never be spoken loud enough for them to listen.

now all I can do is watch. watching my favorite group slowly changing into ten people with no unity at all. I miss the old JUMP for sure. now I can totally blame mr. Johnny if JUMP's existence fades away from my heart. what a way, but I don't want that, thanks.

oh God! I hate Nakuda even more! this is unavoidable :(

my mami dulu pernah bilang sekali: "grup band itu ya val, kalo membersnya banyak-banyak susah, pasti ga bertahan lama. karena susah ngatur orang segitu banyak. apalagi 10 orag val. jangan berharap banyak deh."

thanks mam. now I get what you meant.

by the way, on the bright side it's also official that JUMP is going to release a new single GEEZ! finally! after 365 + 182 days! called "Hitomi no Screen" (I don't understand it but again, whatever). uh-oh, this should worth our(read: JUMP fans) smile right? but then again, what's so exciting if a good news was announced after some bad news! (yepp, I did read kamichan's blog and be inspired by it) at least it means one or more new songs on my JUMP playlist in my iPod.

uh, whatever :(